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Haven't updated in what? three years? Well, I've been married now for about 3 years and just had baby. Liam Clarence. Have a steady job and a happy life. Trying to find a house. That's about it.
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PROTECT THE MUNICIPALITY!!!
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| Little, little, little, gone... |
[13 Jun 2007|01:02am] |
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So I have decided that I am a tremendous coward. I back down and give up and don't confront anyone about anything unless I get pushed too far. If Jimmy hadn't insisted I go to the doctor for work, I never would have. Tonight I displayed my cowardice by running away from them even when I know I was in the right. And I wouldn't have done anything except worry and get sick if they hadn't of contacted me and explained and such things. I'm running away right now, this a coward move, writing this. I know I am a lazy, selfish bitch with a hint of arrogance tossed in, but that doesn't make me less of a coward. I hurt way too easily, and no one really gets me, except Jimmy, and he has to try. Sometimes I think I'd be better off if I never talked to anyone. I'm not a social person, but that's just more of my cowardice coming out. I don't interact well with others, i'm either too slow or my brain jumps ahead of the conversation. Nothing I say makes sense to anyone but me. And then not very often. I am a bad friend, because I don't understand people or what they need. I don't know why I have any friends at all, they should just all stone me in the village square and be done with me. I have no self discipline, very little self control. I am not a very good person, and I can't for the life of me understand why someone as wonderful as Jimmy loves me and needs me, it has made me depend on him, and I think I would fall apart if he ever left me. I pray, because I am weak, that I don't lose him, because I am too weak to get along without him. I am too lazy and too weak to change, and I hate myself. Horrible person, and now I'm whining and having a bout of self pity as well. At least I'm honest about myself to myself. Sometimes, like today, I just want to sleep forever. Little, little, little, until I'm all gone...
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[07 Dec 2006|12:48pm] |
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1. Sex - I mean, who doesn't love sex?
2. Soda - I am a mean coca-cola fan, gotta love the caffeine!
3. Sabriel - And the other Garth Nix books, excellent reading.
4. Singing - I was a choir geek in high school.
5. Satan - No, not really, but it's still a cool word!
6. Sister - I love my sister and miss her terribly, COME HOME!!
7. Summer - I love the warmth.
8. Snakes - They make wonderful pets, as long as you don't get the poisonous ones or the ones that grown to be like 20 to 30 feet long.
9. Snow - When it's fresh and pretty and covering the land, but not the cold or wet aspects.
10. Stars - The night sky is a wondrous sight...
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[05 Mar 2006|01:26pm] |
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Ok so I really need to start updating more, too much has happened in the past 2 months. Well first off, I pierced my tongue. Didn't hurt when he did it, but it swelled and bruised like no other and that hurt like a bitch. Second, Jimmy hurt hus knees pretty badly, he has stress fractures in both of them and is missing out on like a month of training. Hopefully he heals and can make up what he missed so he doesn't have to stay longer, but we won't know until it happens. He's doing alright in all other aspects, the training he completed he enjoyed, and, despite his knees, he's looking forward to the rest of it. Moving on, I met a really cool guy at work, Vince, and he is fast becoming a very good friend. He and Kira hooked up, and it is so cute watching them, but makes me jealous that Jimmy isn't home. I also developed a strong desire to smoke and am not smoking clove cigarettes like a chimney. I bought a snake. Vince has a retic python, it's only a baby but it was so awesome that I knew I had to have one. So we went to a pet store and I fell in love with a Brazilian Rainbow Boa. It and all of it's various accessories cost me about 650, but it will be cheaper to take care of than my cat, mice and rats are cheap. I don't know if it's a male or female yet, but I am going to call it Clarence either way. Shortened to Clarey, it works for both sexes.
My sister pierced her nose and she decided to go to California for college, so my family took a vacation to visit colleges. Apparently Humbolt State is her college of choice. She'll be living there for at least a year, so she can become a resident and get cheaper tuition. I am so proud of her, I gave up too easily. But I am happy the way I am.
Ok so I have no more at the moment because it would take far too long for me to write it all and I have shit to do today.
Bleh!
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| The New Year is Almost Upon Us!!! |
[30 Dec 2005|11:07pm] |
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So I am sitting at home, wondering how so many things can happen to you at the same time. Jimmy and I went to Texas for Christmas, had a fun time. His little brother and sister are still really annoying, and so are his parents for that matter, but still, a good time was had by all. Mexico was pretty cool, and I got the best present of all for Christmas...
Are you ready for this?
Are you sure?
Jimmy proposed to me! That's right, I am now engaged to be married. Oh yea!
It makes me so happy, I could just burst. But I won't.
But here comes the twist...
We got back on Wednesday at like 3 in the morning, slept like the dead, made a mess of the apartment. That day we had to go to the army recruiter's office to pick up some papers, have lunch with his mom, go shopping, try to get out of our lease with the servicemen relief act, have Christmas with my family, go out to george webb's with dave and dan, and then spend the rest of the night together. The next day we got up at 4 to take him to the MEPS center in Milwaukee to be shipped out. He is in basic training in Missouri for 10 weeks, then AIT training for another 10, same place. I won't get to see him until he graduates from basic, and then not until he graduates from AIT. But we can still write to each other and he can call me, hopefully. I already miss him.
Another twist, I don't think that I can get out of the lease.
They will let him out, but not me. Because I am not his dependent but just another person living here. It sucks. But I can live with it if it comes down to that.
Ready for the upswing?
I can keep really busy planning the wedding and redecorating the apartment. It makes me happy to have a wedding to plan, crazy, but happy.
I know I will be ok. Just smack me if I start to use this to whine about how much I miss him, or if I start to whine in person. But hopefully I will be able to keep my whining confined to the walls of my empty apartment, and the ears of my cat.
Ok, so for all of you who are wondering, the ring is white gold, plain band, 1/2 carat diamond of exquisite, almost flawless character and (marquise) cut.
And now I go.
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| In the wee hours of the morning |
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So I am awake at 6 in the morning when I went to sleep at 2. Jimmy is horribly sick. Bad combination of worry, stress, anger, panic, and alcohol. But all will be well in time. At 7 I will go buy him things to calm his stomach.
I am so proud of him, Jimmy is joining the Army Reserves. He wants to have the discipline, and skills they teach, as well as the career opportunities they will provide him.
We are going to Texas to visit his parents for Christmas. They live right on the border so we get to visit Mexico. I am so excited. We leave next week wednesday and return late on the following tuesday. The only downer is that he leaves for basic a day later. So I spend my New Years alone, but I can handle it. He will be gone for 2 months for his basic training, get a week off, then go for 3 months of job training, where he will learn how to detect and contain hazardous chemical spills and such. I don't know if he will be able to come home for his week or not. If he can, I hope we don't have to pay for the plane ticket, cause we can't afford it. I can handle it, him going away, but I am glad he didn't decide to join full time, cause I don't think I could have handled 4 years.
But after that it will be one weekend a month and 2 weeks during the summer. That I can handle.
So I am tired and I think Jimmy is done vomiting, but it is not 7 yet. I hate vomiting, it happens to us way to often. Like last weekend, I vomited from pizza hut. I am never eating there again. Bleh, makes me shiver to remember it.
I can't wait for Texas and Mexico, but I wish it months off yet, so I could have more time with Jimmy until he leaves.
Meh, you can't always get what you want.
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Well this passed the time this morning. Amusing too.
1.) Copy this list into your LJ.
2.) Bold what is true.
3.) Leave plain what is false. (Delete the previous person's running commentary, as necessary.)
4.) Add something at the end.
001. I miss somebody right now.
002. I watch more tv than I used to.
003. I love olives.
004. I love sleeping.
005. I own a home.
006. I wear glasses or contact lenses.
007. I love to play video games.
008. I've done something illegal.
009. I've watched porn movies.
010. I have been in a threesome.
011. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
012. I like my handwriting.
013. I have acne-free skin.
014. I like and respect Al Sharpton.
015. I curse frequently.
016. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
017. I have a hobby.
018. I've been to another country.
019. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
020. I'm really, really smart. *smirk*
021. I've never broken anyone else's bones.
022. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
023. I love rain.
024. I'm paranoid at times.
025. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
026. I need money right now.
027. I love sushi
028. I talk really, really fast sometimes.
029. I have fresh breath in the morning.
030. I have semi-long hair.
031. I have lost money in Las Vegas.
032. I have at least one brother and/or sister.
033. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
034. I shave my legs.
035. I have a twin.
036. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
037. I like the way that I look. (mostly)
038. I have lied to a good friend in the past 6 months.
039. I know how to do cornrows.
040. I am usually pessimistic.
041. I have mood swings.
042. I think prostitution should be legalized.
043. I think Britney Spears is pretty.
044. I have cheated on a significant other.
045. I have a hidden talent.
046. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
047. I've been sexually intimate with fewer than ten people.
048. I am currently single.
049. I have kissed someone of the same sex.
050. I enjoy talking on the phone.
051. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
052. I love to shop.
053. I would rather shop than eat.
054. I would classify myself as ghetto.
055. I'm bourgeoisie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
056. I'm obsessed with my LJ
057. I don't hate anyone.
058. I'm a pretty good dancer.
059. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington.
060. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
061. I have a cell phone.
062. I watch MTV on a daily basis.
063. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
064. I have never been in a real relationship before.
065. I've rejected someone before.
066. I currently have a crush on someone.
067. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
068. I want to have children in the future.
069. I have changed a diaper before.
070. I've had the cops called on me before.
071. I bite my nails.
072. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club.
073. I'm not allergic to anything deadly.
074. I have a lot to learn.
075. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger.
076. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie.
077. I am very shy around the opposite sex.
078. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
079. I have at least 5 away messages saved.
080. I have been rejected by someone.
081. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past.
082. I own the "SOUTH PARK" movie.
083. I have avoided work to play on LJ.
084. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum.
085. I enjoy country music.
086. I love my best friends.
087. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
088. I watch soap operas whenever I can.
089. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist.
090. I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
091. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
092. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story".
093. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
094. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
095. I have dated a close friend's ex.
096. I'm happy as of this moment.
097. I have gone scuba diving.
098. I've had a crush on somebody I have never met.
099. I've kissed someone I knew I shouldn't.
100. I play a musical instrument.
101. I strongly dislike math.
102. I'm procrastinating on something right now.
103. I own and use a library card.
104. I fall in "lust" more than in "love."
105. Cheese enchiladas rock my socks.
106. I think The Lord of the Rings is one of the greatest things ever.
107. I'm obsessed with the tv show "The O.C."
108. I am resentful that I have to grow up.
109. I am an entirely different person around different people...though not fully
110. I think the world would be a better place if people just smiled more often.
111. I think Ramen is one of the best foods in the whole world.
112. I am suffering of a broken heart.
113. I am a nerd.
114. No matter where I am or who I'm with, I always seem to be lonely.
115. I am left handed and proud of it.
116. I try not to change who I am for someone.
117. My heart resides below my feet.
118. I have had sex with someone I was not in a relationship with.
119. I enjoy smoothies.
120. I have had major surgery.
121. I have adopted a pet from the SPCA.
122. I am listening to Radiohead right now.
123. Some people call me by a nickname.
124. I once stole a music stand.
125. I like pumpkin pie.
126. I love NASCAR!
127. I own over 200 CDs.
128. I work 7 days a week.
129. I have mono.
130. I don't have the ability to make decisions without changing my mind.
131. People tell me I have a horrible sense of humor.
132. I'm still in my PJs.
133. I'm looking for love in all the wrong places.
134. I have a tendency to fall for the wrong guys, or have them fall for me, so I can't help but reciprocate.
135. I'll try anything three times.
136. I've done drugs other than alcohol or cigarettes.
137. I'm having trouble sleeping.
138. I am a cuddler
139. I like John Waters’s films.
140. I have made a pornographic videotape.
141. Sloth is my favorite deadly sin.
142. One of my boobs is bigger than the other though not noticed by others.
143. I know all the words to the "Firefly" theme song.
144. I am abnormally obsessed with all things Buffy/Angel.
145. I love comfort food.
146. I'm a right-winged conservative Christian, and proud of it
147. I'm Catholic.
148. I can walk a mile without feeling like I'm going to die over.
149. I am a college student.
150. I like to cook.
151. I hate vacuuming with a passion.
152. I'm addicted to photography and picture frames.
153. I have performed in the Rocky Horror Picture show.
154. I generally get along with my parents.
155. I like Shakespeare.
156. I like to sing.
157. I'll take the Pepsi Challenge any day and STILL pick Coke!
158. I have things that I want to say to people, but I won't/can't because I don't want to hurt/be hurt by them.
159. I'm not "mainstream" when it comes to religion.
160. I've counted down the days until the summer.
161. I've fulfilled someone's dare at a party or gathering.
162. I challenge people to duels, and when I do, I mean it.
163. I was pigeon-toed at one point in my life.
164. I love Digimon and wear goggles to school.
165. I have been to an anime convention.
166. I constantly have my head in the clouds daydreaming.
167. I am addicted to role playing.
168. I was in labor for 30 hours with no pain medication.
169. I own more than three items of vinyl clothing.
170. I read hardcore Christian Bible Tracts because I think they're funny.
171. I hate to drive.
172. I'm unemployed but would rather sit on my butt and play video games than look for a job.
173. I come from a southern, highly religious family and have chosen to keep a major part of my life secret from my family for now.
174. I have a serious taste for older men.
175. I had a happy childhood. It was the teenage years that doomed me
176. I have an unhealthy obsession with certain child actors.
177. I am an only child.
178. I have more than five different lotions on my desk right now.
179. I have a more active online social life than IRL.
180. Sometimes, I actually like my job.
181. I love animals, and have had at least one pet.
182. I love writing letters.
183. I haven't had sex with a lot of people, but I've had a fairly wide range of sexual experiences with those few.
184. I don't bleed, I percolate.
185. I sleep the entire day but am awake all night long.
186. My two children were born in the same month.
187. I like the taste of blood.
188. I do not know how to swim.
189. I know how to shoot a gun!
190. I am currently pregnant with my first baby!
191. I flew to another state when I was underage without asking/ telling my parents.
192. I've experienced natural childbirth.
193. I am a HUGE "Sex and the City" fan.
194. I am currently experiencing physical pain
195. I've lost time at work this week because my car was encased in an ice flow.
196. I'm looking for a new job that I actually like.
197. I am OCD about at least one thing.
198. I have a child named after a fictional or mythological character.
199. I have a pet named after a fictional or mythological character.
200. I have been paid money for my art.
201. I never ever tan at all.
202. All of my grandparents are still living.
203. I'm a huge fan of lists.
204. I'm a very talented mix-CD maker.
205. I'm single and fine with it.
206. I am hopelessly addicted to Diet Coke/Pepsi
207. I love to write, whether it is poems, short stories or the occasional attempt at a novel.
208. I have applied for a job in New York City.
209. Multi-colored Sharpies are the best!!!
210. I love to watch cartoons.
211. I watch the news daily a bit each morning
212. I'm addicted to buying DVD box sets
213. I have more than 5 pages to write in the next 8 hours.
214. I have a huge crush on one of my co workers.
215. I'm currently trying to move on from a hopeless crush.
216. I need him back.
217. I have all I want for Christmas Already
218. I always have a book with me.
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[02 Oct 2005|06:11pm] |
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how these bizarre incidents occur, i really don't know. i have a kitten. her name is millie. luke took her in at 2 am after she had been wandering around his apartment complex for a few days. mr. kitty took an instant dislike to her. so jimmy and i decided to take her. she terrorized mr. kitty until about 4:30 when everyone else passed out. then jimmy and i took a little trip to wal-mart. early morning trips to wal-mart are very amusing. we gave millie a flea and tick bath just to be safe. the poor thing almost had a heart attack. she's much better now. asleep in my lap. she is so pretty and friendly. she has grey fur that looks like it's streaked with real silver. prettiest damn fur i've seen in awhile. only problem is her claws. which we plan on getting rid of them soon enough. bah. must sleep more. kitty woke me up ready to play after only 3 hours. meh.
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| I HATE LIFE!!! |
[23 Sep 2005|12:01am] |
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so i hate life cause my car died and i had to spend all of my money getting a newer one and now i have like no money for a week.
bah!
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I know I should update since I don't really that often.
So the power went out at Times during this wicked ass thunderstorm/tornado. We sat in the cafeteria for 2 hours getting paid to play cards. It was a blast. Also, this awesome press operator Bill keeps asking me to marry him, says it's better to just get it over with than to endure dating. If I wasn't with Jimmy I would at least consider it, he reminds of joe and joe was one of my bestest friends before he dropped off the face of the earth. And the guy who grabs all the girls asses and tries to undo their bras moved to third shift and got fired for sexual harassment. I guess he finally grabbed the wrong girl. Actually it was 2 girls, but some how the rumor got started that I got him fired cause I told Bill that my boyfriend wanted to come in with a baseball bat to deal with the "bastard who grabbed my woman" after I found out he got fired. What strange turns things take at Times. It's like being back in highschool, but there are no annoying pep rallies or teachers. However, my supervisor is like a teracher, except he walks, no struts, around the place telling everyone how to do things when obviously the way we are doing things already makes more sense and is less time consuming. His logic confuses me. Reject diving to finish a job is the worst ever. And glue smells horrid. I want to puke everytime I'm on a binder. If you want to go into the printing industry, don't. it sucks, well it sucks if your bindery. so work on a press. it pays better and you don't have to deal with that awful smell that perfect binders produce. Co-mingling, sweeping, pocket feeding, rejects, mail trays and bags, and tear aparts. Also strappers. This is what I deal with. You don't want to. Trust me. Anyway new subject.
I have also rediscovered Kira and Chastity. Kira no longer live in bum-fuck milwaukee and Chas moved to grafton. At least now I will have some friends other than psuedo- friends through jimmy who really don't want me there because I freak them out them with my observing. So that's why I am home on a Saturday night instead of out with the "gang" (*coughs*, another fun party at brunos) oh and megan, did you throw away all of bruno's porn? cause congrats to you if you did, and for the punch to the stomach you gave him the other day.
I miss when jesse and I did shit, as sad as it is missing high school. And now Mike is gone to college and Tabby went back as well. Goodbye friends. Come see me during your breaks! Bah! Someone call me on the weekends, I almost never have anything to do!
Lesiure Suit Larry kicks ass! What is more fun than trying to get some hot cartoon babe to bone this loser of a cartoon college student while getting drunk and practicing your hand-eye coordination?
So aside from Larry, I have become completely obsessed with anime. Trigun, Escaflowne, Inuyasha, there are more but I am too lazy to type out the names. I have begun collecting manga, movies, and series. I am such a nerd. I only wish I had found them in high school, cause then my classmates could have made fun of me for a real reason. I am such a loser. But I think it's all amusing, so nuts to you all who think I am just demeaning myself. I am content in my loser ways. I also listen to queen, patsy cline, and frank sinatra, just to name a few of the eclectic artists in my collecetion, so rag on me some more, random people who just comment on my livejournal like you know me. SCREW YOU ALL!! BAH!
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I did it, I quit wal-mart! I am so proud of myself, I told the man off, well not really but you get my meaning. I now will work at Times Printing Company, woohoo for me!! I shall go now to tell my family of my victory!!
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| SCHOOLS OUT FOR THE SUMMER!!! |
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It's finally over, thank god! i don't think i could have done it anymore. wal-mart almost fired me cause i get sick too often. thanks for telling me i can only call in 12 times a year, it was a great help. so tired, need sleep desperatly bad. lemonade. unleashed was really cool, and i cannot wait until willy wonka comes out. so dirty, don't want to clean why can't you just clean yourself? bah! leaving now for home...
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| How do I get to infinity? I want to go to sleep there. . . |
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Wow, it's been many moons since I last updated. I live happily in Saukville with Jimmy. Apartments are fun.
Still work at hell-mart; this is the reason I want to sleep forever. Go to school at MPTC in West Bend, graphics communication program. I hate online classes, or at least the ones that make me think. Taking program related classes online would be ok, those are easy. But Econ and Psych are evil classes to take online. Evil I tell you.
I have found that I have very few friends since everyone went away to college. No one calls, no one emails, even though they all have my email address and my phone number. Megan, Bruno, Jimmy, and my sister, and Mike when I can get a hold of him. Maybe Noah, but he hasn't come over lately, and Moore has been taken by Monica, and changed really, he bothers me, so he's just a guy I know and my boyfriend hangs out with sometimes. Kinda sucks. I'm happy though, with my lack of time to do stuff I don't really feel the lack of friends, especially since I get to spend a majority of my free time with Jimmy and he makes me so happy I could burst.
I'm so tired of working these long ass shifts and not being able to do stuff on the weekends because I have to work in the morning. If takes away from the friendship thing. Maybe once Mike turns 18 we can do stuff again. It would be nice to have someone besides Jimmy and his friends that are my "friends" to do stuff with, even though I can't really do anything with them because I always have to work. Maybe Cara and I can do stuff, I really like her.
I always seem to be tired and out of money. The lack of money come from mine and Jimmy's bad eating habits. We can barely cook and mostly don't have time to make what we can cook, so we spend lots of money on those microwaveable things, hot pockets, frozen dinners, etc. The tired I think comes from my over sleeping in the morning or the lack of exercise I get. I should really take up yoga or pilates or tae-bo for something. Maybe I will.
I wish I could just find a decent job that would not make me work on the weekends and would support me comfortably. But I have to save for school to get a job that even has a chance of supporting me later in life. This system really sucks. If I could get a job at a bank, I think I would be content. But I don't think anyone would hire me, so I don't apply. That's the same reason I don't apply for more scholarships, and didn't apply for many in the first place. I don't think anyone would give me one, I'm just not very well-rounded. I didn't play sports and I didn't belong to a church so I could have charity work to put on my applications. All that leaves me with is the arts and my very slightly above average intelligence. If I had any ambition at all I would have gone to school for music, and actually had to work to in school. This is easy, but I enjoy it, it's fun for me. I think if I could find a community theater or choir I could be completely happy. I would be able to act and sing and dance, be part of the stage setting I love so much, but Saukville doesn't have anything like that, and Sheboygan is too far away; I don't have the money to make the commute. Plus work and school take too much of my time as it is. So I wait until I can move to a better community.
A million dollars would take care of all of my problems. I could pay for classes to instruct me in music, art, dancing, and acting. I could live comfortably and not have to work in retail or the food industry ever again. I might even open my own business, a book store. If I had the money I would open a bookstore in Port or Saukville. I think it would get business, and I might enjoy the all of the aspects of running a business. I don't really know.
Now I'm just rambling, I'll stop.
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| the loss of a mind |
[25 Aug 2004|03:03pm] |
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i just realized how incredibly stupid and slow i am, maybe its not that i am stupid but lazy. i think to myself about things, none of them are ever important or wothrwhile, but my friends have all of these incredibly deep and profound thoughts, and they can describe them with amazing detail. I on the other hand have nothing more than fleeting thoughts and blurry details that fill my mind with empty, boring and trivial things. i am either a stupid individual following the flock, or rather lagging behind it, or someone who is barley concious wandering around in a room full of people who have full conciousness and can see clearly. i cannot think of where my mind started to dissolve. maybe it was when i was first in love. my mind was lost to me. then i fell out of love to a bright mind and wonderful thoughts, but love has again robbed me of my clear and concise thoughts, rendering me lazy and stupid. i dont really know. perhaps that is why i dispair so, because i never really know. i give up to easily, like i am doing right now. goodbye.
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[30 Jun 2004|09:18pm] |
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I work at walmart... it sucks... i need sleep... last night i played midnight tag with a bunch of ppl... twas fun... now i am at megans... waiting for jimmy to get off work so we can go to walmart... very ironic... i spend 9 hours of my day at walmart only to go back later on that evening.... stupid me... anyway... must be off...
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[18 Jun 2004|02:02pm] |
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my thoughts flit through my brain and the tiredness takes over... i actually got 9 hours of sleep, but i guess the lack of sleep from the past few of days coupled with the amazing but draining sex i have had in the past three days just wore me out and finally caught up with me... but now my brain doesnt work... i cant think... and i know i have to... cause i have to work in an hour... pooh... i am too tired to work... oh well... i dont relish having to count down my drawer tonight... nor do i relish the thought of doing my cbls... stupid cbls.... i have to fill out an exit survey for kohler... not that bad... i just kinda want to go to jimmys and sleep and play video games all day... i get to do that tomarrow... but i want to do it now... damn job... i bought my dad his father's day gift... and i have to buy a card... kim owes me $16.... meh.... i have to go now....
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[15 Jun 2004|06:30pm] |
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this is so true
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[17 May 2004|08:20am] |
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Well, I'm having a reasonably good day.... so far... i got a tattoo this weekend... its a butterfly on my shoulder... a very simple butterfly... any way... it hurts now... when i irritate it... so carrying my backpack is out of the question.... but it makes me happy... jimmy got a tattoo too... its of a fallen angel... very nice.. kind of scary... any way... yay for only having three finals... but now i have to do my econ project....
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[04 May 2004|10:28am] |
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the updating has not happened in a while... i must remedy this... first off... jimmy and i got back together... makes me so happy... he also got out of the shit hole that is walmart and has a factory job... i still have not managed to get a new job... but i have decided not to go to itt-tech, but either matc or mptc.... probly mptc... they have more of the degree program i want... anyway... im sitting home.... very sick... damn the cold... i feel like my head is stuffed with wet cotton... this is not a pleasent feeling... i havent really done anything lately... state solo and ensemble is over... got a first and a second.... ive been playing a few really good video games and reading a few good books... thats about it... i have no more... bye..
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